BOUGHT ANOTHER 90 DAYS

As, usual Big Jack went for his 3 month check-up today. He came home with the biggest grin and said "I bought 3 more months to torture you" You know that is his purpose in life he said. The CAT Scan no change and blood levels stayed the same. He is on lucky man, he was not suppose to have made it a month. Dr. Frase says he is a miracle man. We could not have made it this far without his kindness and caring. He really cares about his patients he takes care of the whole family. Well, we know that things could change in 3 months, it never leaves your mind, which visit will it be. We don't make plans beyond 3 months. It's the way we have learned to live. To our kids thank-you we know it worries on your mind. The Lord is not finished with him yet. He still has something left to do. I guess it's to take care of me!!!! You know how hard it's to take care of a Coulter (lol). May the Lord bless your lives.

CAREGIVERS LIVES

As I sit down to write many thoughts come to my mind. I hope I can write the way you may understand. As I wrote earlier we went to the Relay For Life, it wasn't for Jack that I go, I go for myself too. I know that Jack will always be given a purple shirt, well you see caregivers are given shirts too.Our shirts do change colors this year it is yellow, last year it was lime green but purple will always be a survivors color, no matter what state you live in. In my mind a caregiver shirt is important to "you have survived" You look at the track to see how many they are, just as the purple shirts, it knows no age, female, male, or color. I noticed the pride these shirts are worren. As I was able to help hand out the shirts this year, one thing was in common. I was hugged many times and heard these beautiful words "thank- you for being a caregiver" with tears in their eyes. For the first time in a long time I knew I knew where I was meant to be. You see, everybody there understands how you feel. The fear you live with, the pain of wondering when again. You are never ever the same again once CANCER enters your life. It's not lack of FAITH, it's complete understanding of really what "Thy Will Be Done" means. No matter how hard you work CANCER has a mind of its own, it never sleeps. You always have it your mind is this the doctors visit, that will change your life again. I know that their are many diseases in this world, and my heart goes out to them who suffer.A caregiver can be many different people. You need to be willing to Fight Back. You do many things that may go unrewarded. The patient does not remember many things, chemo works on the brain, but you are not so lucky you do remember. You do not need to hold a degree, but by the time it's over you deserve the highest degree there is. It does not always work or end up the way you want, but you need to be able to say," I did all I could". It's hard to explain, but you are always waiting for it to come back, and wondering can I do it again. That's what makes you normal, if you can use the word normal. You will never be the same again. That I promise.

PRIDE AND JOY

When you get sad and lonely just look at my beautiful grand kids. They can change how you feel. I have received some beautiful blessings on this earth.

I LOVE MY CAMERA

Pictures from our visit to Lubbock!!!!!

FUN TIME

When Nana and Paw have the chance to go to Lubbock, we go on what Ellen calls her date with Paw. This time we took Jack Jack with us. We love the time we have with the grand kids, and hope they will remember as our special time. This time Jack Jr wanted to go.

DREAMS DO COME TRUE

When I think back to Jack Jr in the seventh grade he said he wanted to be a lawyer. Well, this month he did graduate as a lawyer, I know he still has to take the bar, also graduated with his Masters in financial planning. I know how hard he has worked with Lorraine supporting him. Jack has always set goals in his life, and I know that he will continue. He just keeps on going, he's decided not to stop yet, but go another 3 years at Tech. As parents we have watched him grow in degrees, husband, father and son. We knew you could do it Jack. We are very proud and love you so much. Keep on going it makes us look good too. It all started with papaw buying that set of encyclopedia's you promised him you would read everyone, you haven't stopped yet. He would say it came from him. YOU'VE MADE IT!!!!!

HOPE IS WHAT A SURVIOR LIVES WITH

Here are some extra pictures I took!!!! LIKE THE BACK OF A SHIRT I WAS GIVEN.

CELEBRATE REMEMBER FIGHT BACK

Today,May 15, 2009, was the Relay For Life for Tyler, we decided to go. If you want to humble yourself, go to one. We went to the dinner for survivors, we got there a little early, as usual I got up and asked did they need help. For 2 hours I signed up the survivors and gave them their goody bag. It was a beautiful site to see so many purple shirts. Purple is for Cancer Survivors. There was almost 200 people there. I looked in awe. It's been 2 1/2 years not. Today was also his usual 6 mth. CAT scan, getting use to them. Next week is the doctor visit. I hate the waiting, but know that I can't change it. One day there will be a CURE!! With many more relays. The relay's help raise the money to find that CURE. Go to one someday and see the laughfter and hope. Big Jack keeps fighting for his kids, grandkids and to keep the dogs away!!!!!